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help 

i know that i can help you 

but that doesn't mean that i have to help you all time

and i must help you 

if you really need my help why don't you ask

whether or not i am willing to help you 

don't just ask for my help 

and said thankyou in the very end

coz i don't wanna be exploited

coz i am what i am 

by myself

What do I do to ignore them behind me?
Do I follow my instincts blindly?
Do I hide my pride from these bad dreams
And give in to sad thoughts that are maddening?
Do I sit here and try to stand it?
Or do I try to catch them red-handed?
Do I trust some and get fooled by phoniness,
Or do I trust nobody and live in loneliness?
Because I can't hold on when I'm stretched so thin
I make the right moves but I'm lost within
I put on my daily facade but then
I just end up getting hurt again
By myself (Myself)

Pre chorus:
I ask why, but in my mind
I find I can't rely on myself

I can't hold on
To what I want when I'm stretched so thin
It's all too much to take in
I can't hold on
To anything watching everything spin
With thoughts of failure sinking in

If I turn my back I'm defenseless
And to go blindly seems senseless
If I hide my pride and let it all go on
Then they'll take from me 'till everything is gone
If I let them go I'll be outdone
But if I try to catch them I'll be outrun
If I'm killed by the questions like a cancer
Then I'll be buried in the silence of the answer
(By myself)

Pre chorus
Chorus

How do you think I've lost so much
I'm so afraid, I'm out of touch
How do you expect I will know what to do
When all I know is what you tell me to

Don't you know
I can't tell you how to make it go
No matter what I do, how hard I try
I can't seem to convince myself why
I'm stuck on the outside

sad

i am so sad
sad as i never sad before
fuck yes i am sad

what a life

What a life i have
they said if you wanted a big fish
you must sail on the middle of the sea
and i have been sailing to the middle of the sea
but i was drown and being eaten by some sharks

selamat tinggal indonesia

goodbye, Indonesia
I'm gonna leave you for a while
i will always miss you
i even miss you right now
though i don't wanna leave you
but life must go on
i gotta prove them that i can be the man
more than just a humble man
i can be something shiny
and when I'm shinning
i will return to you
to love you with all of my heart
I Love You

what a liar

let me tell you something to you
as the old megadeth said
"if you shake my hand, better count your finger"
coz' i might steal your fingers with my lies
and i am a big fat liar ............................

Tajam

Disadari atau ga, manusia mempunyai kekuatan yang luar biasa hebat jika dibandingkan dengan makhluk lainnya. dan jenis dari kekuatan ini sangat banyak dan variatif sekali. namun yang ingi saya tampilkan dalam posting kali ini adalah bahwa manusia mempuanyai kemampuan menggunakan lidahnya untuk memotong sesuatu. maksud saya bukan memotong benda yang terlihat oleh mata namun benda yang kasat mata. hal ini saya sadari sendiri bahwa gara-gara lidah saya yang konon bisa menjadi setajam pedang, sebuah hubungan percintaan yang telah terjalin dengan rapih dan baik bahkan hangat serta mesra, pokoknya indah deh, bisa hancur putus berkeping dan meninggalkan luka yang mendalam.
saya sadar bahwa saya diberi berkah berupa kekuatan persuasif oleh tuhan dan entah mengapa suatu ketika saya ingin mencoba untuk mengetahui seberapa hebatkayh kekuatan persuasif saya tersebut. dan hasilnya ada seseorang yang dekat dengan saya harus menanggung derita cinta gara ketajaman lidah saya.
saya sering berbohong kepada semua orang dan kebohongan saya jarang terungkap. kalaupun memang terungkap saya masih bunya beribu-ribu jurus lidah yang mematikan dan juga bisa membuat saya lepas dari jeratan yang akan menjerat saya dalam ketidak berdayaan. bukan saya sombong namun itulah kenyataannya. saya tahu betul dan memahami dengan sungguh bahwa suatu saat saya akan terkena akibat dari semua yang saya lakukan namun apa daya saya ga bisa berhenti berbohong. tapi gapapa pelan-pelan saya pasti akan bisa berhenti berbohong.

Berani Malu

For God Sake i don't wanna do this anymore
hiding and waiting for the right time to show my face up
i wanna be in the front line of this war
i wanna die as fast as i could
and i want it because i know
i wont die for nothing
and even if i lived
at least i can live peacefully
coz' i have done something
that's all i ask

MISS ME?

DAH LAMA AKU GA POSTING DI SINI
HEHEHEHEHE
PASTI ANDA SEMUA KANGEN MA SAYA!
HEHEHEHEHE
JADI GE ER DECH

Kejamnya Manusia

Gila deh manusia jaman sekarang ini. Semakin hari manusia semakin kejam, mereka dah tak canggung lagi untuk membunuh sesamanya. gila deh pokoknya. liat aja tuh tadi pagi dah ada dua bom yang meledak di hotel jw marriot dan di hotel ritz carlton. ga tau dan ga jelas deh maunya apa tuh para teroris bangsat tersebut. menurut analisa hasil terawangan saya (hehehehe sok paranormal dikit lah...........) para teroris yang tega mengebom tersebut merupakan jaringan teroris yang bisu ma budeg. mereka kepengen mengutarakan isi hati mereka agar dunia mendengarnya (gitu kira-kira) namun karena keterbatasan mereka (ya itu tadi, bisu ma budeg), akhirnya mereka merakit bom dan meledakkannya. tapi ada satu hal perlu dicatat (biar saya ga dituntut), ga semua orang yang tuna rungu ma tuna wicara adalah teroris hehehe.........
yag pasti para teroris tersebut adalah manusia-manusia bodoh, goblog, colo, idiot dengan aikyu (IQ) di bawah nol. sekarang gini aja deh. kalaupun mereka pikir dengan cara tersebut mereka bisa masuk surga dengan jaminan pasti 100% mereka salah. bukankah masih ada banyaaaaak sekali jalan yang bisa ditempuh untuk meraih surga dengan jaminan pasti 1000% tanpa harus membunuh sesama. kalaupun mereka pikir pengeboman itu merupakan jalan untuk menegakkan agama ISLAM mereka juga salah. agama ISLAM ga bisa ditegakkan dengan perbuatan-perbuatan hina seperti itu karena Agama ISLAM adalah agama yang penuh dengan perdamaian.
tapi yang pasti saya pribadi merasa kasihan ma para teroris itu. udah budeg, bisu, goblog lagi.
dikecam dengan cara apapun mereka ga akan ngerti
dikutuk dengan cara apapun mereka ga akan brenti kecuali
jika mereka dibimbing dengan bahasa isyarat hehehe

dasar goblog lu ......................

sajak dari hujan

sajak ini turun begitu hujan turun
huruf-hurufnya yang bening seketika membasahi
kertas buku ini
maka terbukalah bait pertamanya
"Telah kubandingkan kedatangan hujan dengan kedatanganmu
alam ternyata lebih menanti hujan
namun aku pasti lebih menantikanmu
karena sekali hujan menyentuh wajahmu
pasti membeku airnya dan jatuh dalam butir-butir es"
hujan tetap turun
dan langkah-langkah itu menghentikanku
maka biarlah kuakhiri sajak hujan ini dengan kalimat
"Engkaulah hujan yang ditunggu rumput kering seperti aku"

janji saya pada anda

saya berjanji saya akan mempostingkan beberapa karya saya dan teman-teman saya pada waktu saya ada di perantauan jadi nantikan saja postingan saya selanjutnya hehehehehe

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i saw her

Yes, i saw her
The one that I've been needing to see everyday
And, My God, she's very gorgeous in that dress
I won't forget every second I spent to stare at her
I won't forget every second she spent to torture my heart
I know, for God sake, I know that she's gorgeous
And I know that she always knows that she's gorgeous
Like an art of the beautiful rainbow that's worth to see
Though it cannot be touch and own

I dunno if I've ever falling in love for her
But all that I do know that I really want her so bad
To calm the storm inside my fragile heart
To satisfy my hunger and my torturing thirst
To melt the ice that make me froze
To turn off the fire that burning in my head
To cure the want inside of me

Maybe it'll be enough to have her just for one day
I dunno if i can still want her the next day

Dear Lord, please help this humble man
Let me have her for one day only
and for me only
coz' my arms are burning in the need to hold her
my lips are parting in the need to kiss her
my body is aching in the need to touch her
and my crotch, for heaven's sake, is begging to feel her deeply
just for one day
for one day only
and i swear
that's all i need

DALAM GELAP

dalam gelap aku mampu melihat sinar matamu
dalam gelap aku mampu melihat keindahan uraian rambutmu
dalam gelap aku mampu melihat kehangatan senyummu
dalam gelap aku mampu melihatmu utuh dan tak beku
dalam gelap aku mampu melihat semua itu
namun aku tak mampu menghentikan gelisahku
bahkan setelah kulihat kamu menghampiriku
seakan aku tahu bahwa akan tiba waktuku
dan sesuatu yang ada ditanganmu telah memanggilku
dalam gelap aku mampu mencintaimu
dan dalam gelap pula aku mati di tanganmu

crab!!!!!!!!

just a crab
just a crab, just a crab,
just a crab, just a crab, just a crab
just a crab, just a crab,just a crab, just a crab,
just a crab, just a crab,just a crab, just a crab,just a crab,
just a crab, just a crab,just a crab, just a crab,just a crab, just a crab,
just
just
just
just
a
a
a
a
a crab
crab
crab
crab

i haven't said that yet

i dunno what to say just break the ice between us
it seems like i have no balls whenever i get close to you
and i know it's just one of the symptom that i want you
and the symptom is getting worse whenever you are around
and that's sure hurt a lot in my very own heart

i dunno if i should just hold you tight
and if that happens
would you shout and scream
trying to let go and then slap me in my face
or would you hold me even tighter

i dunno if i should just walk closer to you
and kiss your lips passionately
and if that happens
would you shout and scream
trying to let go and then slap me in my face
or would you kiss me even more passionately

i dunno if i should just tell you that i love you
and if that happens
would you shout and scream
spit on my face and then slap me in my face
or you just stand there like a rock with no answer
and all of sudden
you build a biggest ice wall between us
because i know
you never fall for me

the use of "Fuck"

Fuck you

Perhaps one of the most interesting and colorful words in the English language today is the word "fuck." It is the one magical word which, just by its sound, can describe pain, pleasure, love and hate. In language, "fuck" falls into many grammatical categories.

It can be used as a verb, both transitive (John fucked Mary) and intransitive (Mary was fucked by John).

It can be an action verb (John really gives a fuck),

a passive verb (Mary really doesn't give a fuck),

an adverb (Mary is fucking interested in John),

or as a noun (Mary is a terrific fuck).

It can also be used as an adjective (Mary is fucking beautiful)

or an interjection (Fuck! I'm late for my date with Mary).

It can even be used as a conjunction (Mary is easy, fuck she's also stupid). 

As you can see, there are very few words with the overall versatility of the word "fuck". Aside from its sexual connotations, this incredible word can be used to describe many situations:

1. Greetings "How the fuck are ya?" 
2. Fraud "I got fucked by the car dealer." 
3. Resignation "Oh, fuck it!" 
4. Trouble "I guess I'm fucked now."
5. Aggression "FUCK YOU!"
6. Disgust "Fuck me." 
7. Confusion "What the fuck.......?"
8. Difficulty "I don't understand this fucking business!" 
9. Despair "Fucked again..." 
10. Pleasure "I fucking couldn't be happier." 
11. Displeasure "What the fuck is going on here?" 
12. Lost "Where the fuck are we." 
13. Disbelief "UNFUCKINGBELIEVABLE!"
14. Retaliation "Up your fucking ass!" 
15. Denial "I didn't fucking do it." 
16. Perplexity "I know fuck all about it." 
17. Apathy "Who really gives a fuck, anyhow?" 
18. Greetings "How the fuck are ya?" 
19. Suspicion "Who the fuck are you?" 
20. Panic "Let's get the fuck out of here." 
21. Directions "Fuck off." 
22. Disbelief "How the fuck did you do that?"

It can be used in an anatomical description- "He's a fucking asshole."
It can be used to tell time- "It's five fucking thirty." 
It can be used in business- "How did I wind up with this fucking job?"
It can be maternal- "Motherfucker."
It can be political- "Fuck D an Quayle!" 


It has also been used by many notable people throughout history: "What the fuck was that?" Mayor of Hiroshima 
" Where did all these fucking Indians come from?" General Custer 
"Where the fuck is all this water coming from?" Captain of the Titanic 
"Thats not a real fucking gun." John Lennon 
"Who's gonna fucking find out?" Richard Nixon 
"Heads are going to fucking roll." Anne Boleyn 
"Let the fucking woman drive." Commander of Space Shuttle "Challenger" 
"What fucking map?" Mark Thatcher 
"Any fucking idiot could understand that." Albert Einstein
"It does so fucking look like her!" Picasso 
"How the fuck did you work that out?" Pythagoras
"You want what on the fucking ceiling?" Michaelangelo
"Fuck a duck." Walt Disney
"Why?- Because its fucking there!" Edmund Hilary 
"I don't suppose its gonna fucking rain?" Joan of Arc
"Scattered fucking showers my ass." Noah

64 Ways to Say "I Love You"

64 Ways to Say "I Love You":

• Don't compare them to anyone.
• Be courteous at all times.
• Embrace the present moments without fear or guilt.
• Live by the Golden Rule (Do unto others as you would have them do unto you).
• Give your full attention when talking.
• Become their biggest fan and cheerleader!
• Toast each other over breakfast or dinner to say I love you.
• Tell them how they bring love to your life.
• Laugh about kids quotes on love or events.
• Talk about your day during mealtimes.
• Read books aloud together.
• Say you're sorry.
• Recall good and bad memories.
• Let go of the past to say I love you.
• Do nothing together.
• Encourage health in all its forms.
• Trust your partner enough to cry together.
• Act silly together.
• Be lavish in praise.
• Ask questions about opinions, feelings, thoughts.
• To say I love you, forget about labels.
• Encourage adventures and risks!
• Show your joy when they come home.
• Bake cookies.
• Leave stress at work to say I love you.
• Use flannel sheets in the winter.
• Solve problems together - such as crosswords or Suduku.
• Show your gratitude for them.
• Be a good sounding board.
• To say I love you, take pride in them -- and show it.
• Compliment them in front of others.
• Spend time with them.
• Listen.
• Ask for hugs and kisses.
• Take vacations together.
• Tell the truth to say I love you.
• Use pet names to say I love you.
• Practice self-acceptance.
• Hunt for treasure together.
• Be interested in their interests.
• To say I love you, let go of jealousy.
• Accept their weaknesses and flaws.
• Ditch work or responsibilities to play with them.
• Be yourself.
• Share chocolates, ice cream sundaes, milkshakes.
• To say I love you, ignore slights.
• Pray or meditate together.
• Practice forgiveness.
• Watch classic movies together.
• Leave notes or send letters.
• To say I love you, buy a "for no reason at all" gift.
• Don't gossip or judge.
• Give the benefit of the doubt to say I love you.
• Give space when they're in a bad or sad mood.
• Learn something new together.
• Go dancing.
• Keep your promises to say I love you.
• Make them laugh.
• Consider their feelings.
• Learn ways to rekindle the romance.
• Hide a treat in their lunch.
• To say I love you, make home a fun place to be.
• Let them make their own decisions.
• Say what you mean when you say I love you. Say why.